new start???

Starting over…most people when there spouse dies they have a job, friends and their life set. They might have had a more difficult time with a loved one like they were sick and it was long and drawn out. That is the only thing that is a good out of this situation. It was quick and he did not suffer. Also I knew we have an extremely good relationship with nothing left unsaid. We even talked about when Joe died what I should do and etc.(besides my next husband should be rich) I think we both knew something was going to happen just not this soon or this way. I’m not sharing with the world how he thought it would happen it is kind of funny but embarrassing and I might get struck by lighting if I say anything.

My is point of my rambling is…most people have 50 to 85% of there life still intacted after a death. They may not know that at the time but they do. I have 20% left. I have to start all over in every aspect of my life but family and a couple friends. I would like to get out and do things again like I use to. It just really hit me hard this Saturday I really missed my old life. It is just hard to start a new one but I believe one day it will all come together.

tired...

Yesterday my acupuncturist said I was deeply tired. She always thought I was just lacking sleep tired before because of everything going on in my life but now that somethings have settled down she said I'm just tired of things. That would explain why my sparkle is gone again too.

examples of what I mean.

I'm tired of being criticized, making people happy, doing that other want, working on my resume, getting up at 5 with the dogs, Minnesota, and so on. Which totally makes sense to me. Think about this. The times I have been happiest is when I have gone out to LA for Joe's court stuff. Something I wanted to do for myself. You would think that would be stressful and make me tired of going out for it. However I didn't have to make anyone happy, was not criticized and etc.

She said to fix this I need to start doing things for myself again.

That being said...I'm taking the dogs to the cabin :)

tickets

Yesterday I went to St. Paul - not my favorite city I always get lost there and i just dont' like it...

I got a ticket for parking where i was not suppose to but the sign said between certain hours and it wasn't in between those hours. Also for insecure/illegible/obstructed plates or tabs. REALLY my plates look no different than any one else.

Another reason to not like St. Paul!

Thank god I have other things in my life to worry about and have been really busy again. (why the lack of blogs)

Minnesota nice

So I finally figured out the meaning of Minnesota nice – Sunday I had a conversation with someone who shed light on to it. Transplants living in Minnesota making fun of them made up Minnesota nice. Before you get all up in arms it is basically people that were born and raised in the twin cities area. For some reason anyone born north of clouquet doesn’t fit into the “Minnesota nice” category they are actually nice and want to met and talk to people.

He also get freaked out when traveling out of state and people are actually nice and what to talk to you. I have many stories to back up my claim…this past April when I was on my trip; there was an REI group that was basically following up around everywhere we went. Our group talked to them and found out they too had Minnesotans (twin cities) in their group. Oh that was the wrong thing to say they then ignored me whenever they saw me. Normal people would bond over that, right?

The other claim was when I just started working at Fingerhut. I was actually told by what I thought was a friend of a couple month – at least we went to lunch everyday and talked about everything – I asked her to do something like a movie or what ever on the weekend and she said “ I have enough friends I have so many that I can’t see them all now some I have had since grade school” Really??? You haven’t evolved as a person since grade school and what about your college friends?

I am glad to finally found someone that agrees with me that Minneapolis is good but the people not so much. This also got me to thinking I don’t have any associations with actual born and raised twin cities people… All transplants!

my house

My apartment in Chicago. My windows were the back 2. My door was the side one in the alley - across from where the garage burned down one time and melted my A/C and my neighbors pounded on the back door to wake us up.

The front of the house

The mark I left on Chicago in from of my old apartment "J 10-97"

Wedding photos

I know these are long over due too. Here are some photos from Karen's beautiful wedding.

Tim Burton

This is the entry way to the exhibit. Yes you walk through the mouth of the monster. However you could not take photos in there and I also got kicked out for talking on my cell phone.

too funny

This is to funny and had to share - I know some of you will laugh at this.

LACMA

When I was in LA the last time I went to the LACMA. I went to see the Tim Burton showing - basically lots of his private drawings and models. It was great to see it and I was a little sad that it didn't start till after I was there in the end of may. Who knew I would have to go back.

I have always wanted to see the lamp poles outside of it. They are all light up at night but I didn't want to stick around by myself to see that. If you ever saw the move no strings attached there is a scene where the actors are here at night.

405

I'm a little crazy you know....I want to be in LA this weekend to see what happens when the 405 is closed.