March 30, 2010

day 262

Ana had her last of her doggie classes last night. I think she was the most improved in the class, I was a little disappointed they didn't do anything special for the last class.

When Foxy got done with her classes they had a graduation and Joe came and we showed all the guest what they had learned. Foxy also got a certificate that was proudly displayed on the fridge.
Ana got shit...

I got a couple of books I'm trying to read, I will fill you in on them maybe thursday...

Have a good tuesday and if you are in Minnesota go out and enjoy this warm weather that is coming through sunday!

March 29, 2010

day 261

Had my acupunturce today which was good and we talked about my favorite subject lately Vitamin D. He said he was treating this guy that had constant pain and after taking Vit. D his pain has gone away.

Mom he suggest you need at least 5000 units in the falls.

Also on my way home from there this truck pulled up next to me at a stop light and honked...I though what did I do now, but it was just some guys honking and waving hi. Every now and then I like a little cat call. It has been a long time though, even the last two time I went to new york I never got one. Never got on one in Minneapolis either but I have gotten them in Brussels and Paris.

I also got another compliment on this coat I got in a consignment store in Brussels. Every time I wear this coat someone mentions they like it. Here is a photo from the new twins stadium with my coat. OK I will add it later I can't get it to work right now.

Also the car deal called to day to do a follow up on how my car is doing...yes it was the same girl and she asked for Joe...I said I'm his wife and she studder abit knowing full well it was me and she didn't want to talk to me. I told her is was OK and left it at that.

But I remember now why Joe always dropped me off to take car of the car and I remember that they wouldn't put my name first for anything and need Joe's on the title and in there records. Again it goes back to the penis thing...

March 26, 2010

day 258

So I'm very low on Vitamin D. I'm a 19 and as you read below that is seriouly deficient...and since I have been talking vit. D3 and my rheumatoid arthritis has been getting better. I also feel good like I have been in a sunny place. So I just wanted to share this info with you all because I care about you and want you to take care of yourself. Nobody tells you about vit. d. IF you are interested in more of the article I can send you the link.

In fact, your vitamin D level should never be below 32 ng/ml, and any levels below 20 ng/ml are considered serious deficiency states, increasing your risk of as many as 16 different cancers and autoimmune diseases like multiple sclerosis and rheumatoid arthritis, just to name a few.

There is one other thing you need to be aware of if you choose to use an oral vitamin D supplement and that is that there are basically two types – one is natural and one is synthetic.

  • The natural one is D3 (cholecalciferol), which is the same vitamin D your body makes when exposed to sunshine

  • The synthetic one is vitamin D2, which is sometimes called ergocalciferol

Once either form of the vitamin is in your body, it must be converted to a more active form. Vitamin D3 is converted 500 percent faster than vitamin D2, and is clearly a better alternative.

Vitamin D2 also has a shorter shelf life, and its metabolites bind with protein poorly, making it less effective. Studies have even concluded that vitamin D2 should no longer be regarded as a nutrient appropriate for supplementation or fortification of foods (although it continues to be used). So if you choose to use vitamin D supplements make sure it is in the form of vitamin D3.

Please be aware that nearly all the prescription-based supplements contain synthetic vitamin D2, so if you receive a prescription for vitamin D from your doctor, you’re most likely receiving the inferior vitamin D2.

When it comes to the benefits of optimizing your vitamin D levels, the evidence is simply overwhelming. Research shows you can drastically reduce your risk of cancer and countless other chronic diseases by getting safe sun exposure, using a safe tanning bed, or taking a high-quality supplement.

Yet, a great deal of people around the world have heard nothing of this great “discovery.” It’s even likely that your doctor is among them, which is why it’s so important to educate yourself.

As a result of flawed assumptions about sun exposure, and the subsequent recommendations, a vast majority of people are deficient in vitamin D. It’s thought that over 95 percent of U.S. senior citizens may be deficient, along with 85 percent of the American public.

Clearly, the word needs to get out but the mainstream media is slow to react. Plus, there’s no money to be made on selling vitamin D (it’s one of the most inexpensive supplements around) and sun exposure is free! So don’t count on any major corporations or drug companies to help get the message out (rather, count on them to try and suppress this lifesaving information).

The longer this information goes largely unnoticed, the more people who will die unnecessarily from potentially preventable cancers and other diseases.

Getting the correct test is the first step in this process, as there are TWO vitamin D tests currently being offered: 1,25(OH)D, and 25(OH)D.

The correct test your doctor needs to order is 25(OH)D, also called 25-hydroxyvitamin D, which is the better marker of overall D status. This is the marker that is most strongly associated with overall health.

March 25, 2010

OH my goodness

Let me tell you about my morning so far. I had an appointment to get my car all tuned up because it has been a long time and has been driven back and forth to LA with out being checked.
When I called the girl I talked to was a bitch but I thought oh well maybe she is just having a bad day. NOPE that is her personality. I went into the service area and she walked out to the car with out a HI or how are you...then walked back in after checking the car and said "I need the keys" my response was sure they are on the seat. Then she was typing in the lic. plate number and I said you can't find it by the plate number I have a new one...her responds is I also have the vin number. Seriously snobby.

Then I was waiting for my loaner car that comes from enterprise...while the guy called me you car is was a PT Cruiser. I'm sorry for people that have one but I don't do PT Cruisers. I asked for a different car and it would be an hour for a ford suv. At the point I said no thank you I will go back to the dealer and have them give me a ride home.

While I walk back in to the service station and the girl was on the phone...not a big deal but she rudely said to me "i will be right with you" that is fine you are on the phone I'm not going to interrupt you. I went to the other lady and asked for a ride home. She said it will be a couple minutes. So I went to wait...and wait...and wait... Then went back to ask if I could just get my car back and are you ready for this...THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT ME AND HOW BITCHY I WAS....Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I asked for my car back and it was started ask they said it was so I thanked them for Talking about me and I left.

If I had a penis or was dress like a business man I don't think I would have had this problem. So when I pick up the car I'm thinking I need to be dress up and look important to get attention...I still need to talk to the manager of the shop but I need to cool down a bit.

Hope this made sense I was typing fast and not thinking clearly.

Also I still don't have my insurance all set if you can believe this...I think he knows I'm going to change when things start to expire but I don't have any to expire yet. :)

March 24, 2010

O lala

This is why I have never see the top of the Eiffel Tower!!!! This is a message from one my face book friends as of 3 hours ago.

Stuck in the elevator in the eiffel tower

A comment from someone.

have telephoned the Eiffel Tower after receiving a tweet from him to say he was stuck - then no more tweets from him so I was concerned! The technicians are there; it is a problem with the door - so, they know about it. Poor Eric! At least we now know he is not stuck without anybody knowing lol....

I'm free now ! And enjoying the view!

Photo from his tweet

I love Paris but I don't think this view is worth getting stuck in a shaky old elevator.

day 256

AHHH to busy to blog today. Yesterday I went to a photo class to learn how to work Joe's camera. Which I'm more confused now than ever and need a different class.

Today Pilate's them working on the estate taxes. After the estate taxes I only have one more major hurdle besides the trial to get done. Then my life might be back to normal or close to anyway.

March 23, 2010

day 255

Keeping with my eating vegetarian - I found these products that I love and wanted to tell you about them.

I love these nuggets but jut don't cook them as long as they say I have burnt many you have to pay attention to them to figure out how long you really need to cook them. I now do about 10 minutes then flip and sometime that is too long. The Rice Dream are sooo good I eat them all the time.
I made the chick' n scallopini Sunday night
My sunday night dinner Gardein "chicken" with pine nut and basil breading. I washed off the other seasoning and breaded the chicken and pan seared it. Yummy!

March 22, 2010

day 254

As a season ticket holder (20 games) to the twins I got to go see the new stadium on Sunday. It is pretty cool and can't wait for the games to start.

Front of the stadium
View from bleachers
View from my seats
Another view from my seats
My seats
View from the skybox...yes they were all open for us to look in, and dream we got tickets to sit in them
Sitting in the golden glove

March 20, 2010

day 252

Today is meat free day!

Here an article from the huffington post and also the link to Alicia Silverstone's blog -I have been meat free since the end of January and I'm still doing good and feel better. Making Gardin crusted with pine nuts this weekend.

Really this is easy to do...Jilaine I'm talking to you, try it for one day.

Hello, it's the Ides of March, the day back in 44 BC when Julius Caesar's friends gathered on the steps of the Senate and stabbed him in the back. Fast-forward a few millenia, and when it comes to kindness, politicians still aren't the first folks we turn to.

Despite Bush Senior's push for a kinder, gentler nation, that sort of stuff can't be legislated. It tends to come not from above, but from below, from grass roots, from we, the people, from the heart. This Saturday, it can come from you. Saturday, March 20 marks the 25th annual Great American Meatout, one day devoted to the push for a diet of plant-based bounty and kindness. All you have to do to be part of it is to enjoy a day without meat.

Launched by FARM (Farm Animal Rights Movement) Meatout began as a small but earnest effort. Observed all around the globe, it had trouble gaining traction here, where America's meat-mad masses viewed vegetarians and vegans creatures from another planet. Well, we walk the earth, and you might notice, do so with a lighter step both in terms of weight and carbon.

Over time, the Great American Meatout has, like the best grass roots initiatives, taken hold. It's now the world's largest food/lifestyle education campaign thanks to high-profile celebs going vegan like newbie Ellen deGeneres and plant-based pinup Alicia Silverstone.

The reasons for kissing off carne are myriad -- personal health, environmental sustainability, but FARM started with kindness and Ms. Silverstone's bestseller The Kind Diet and her vegan websiteThe Kind Life take us right back there.

I used to think the kindness thing referred to the environmental and karmic good we could do by not eating or exploiting animals. Over the years, I've evolved. I still love animals, which why I don't eat them. But I've concluded a vegan diet is not only kind to cows, it's one of the kindest things we can do for ourselves, as well.

The Kind Diet tells how a vegan diet can make you gorgeous and strong and saner. I'm in favor of all three. Ms. Silverstone offers insights for everyone and food plans to suit hardcore, veteran vegans as well as those just entering this brave new world. Though very fab and of the moment, The Kind Dietechoes the timeless Vedic poem the Mahabharata, which says, "Those who desire to possess good memory, beauty, long life with perfect health, and physical, moral and spiritual strength, should abstain from animal food."

Stoked by fresh, local produce, wholesome whole grains, nutrient-filled legumes, nuts and seeds, we immediately lower our risk of America's top three killers -- cancer, heart disease and diabetes. And the food is fabulous because plant-based dishes have evolved apace with the Great American Meatout. Frankly, a quarter of a century ago, what America knew of vegetarian food was sprouts or bland, leaden grain and bean casseroles. Eighties efforts like Mollie Katzen's Enchanted Broccoli Forest helped lead us out of the darkness (and heaviness) and gave produce the luscious treatment it deserves. Now vegan bakeries pop up on every city corner and stylish plant-based cookbooks like Ms. Silverstone's, meatless websites like Meatless Monday and blogs like ahem, this one prove meatless isn't wingnut, it's both green and hot.

A meatless diet does hot things for the spirit, too. Get rid of eating animal protein and you get rid of inhumane practices affecting livestock and labor. If you believe, as French gastronome Brillat-Savarin did, that we are what we eat, forking up a plate of cruelty becomes who you are. Going meatless is like a karmic Mastercleanse. There's enough anger, violence, impatience, road rage and such in the world as it is without adding to it.

Perhaps if our Roman forebears had their own Meatout, they'd have worked things out with Caesar, not whacked him -- just a theory. Happily, America has its own Meatout, stronger and more sophisticated than ever. It's never been easier to be meatless and kindness never goes out of style.

March 19, 2010

day 251

I found this new saying yesterday and thought I would share it with everyone! Hopefully this will carry on into the weekend and beyond.

March 18, 2010

day 250

My tire is now fixed :) I can't believe that happened. Darn pot holes.

To cheer me up I think I'm going shoe shopping on saturday, not to mention I just got back from grocery shopping and they finally had the gardein product that I have been searching for. Stay tuned for that entry.

My car on the street tireless, I'm sure my neighbors loved it.

March 17, 2010

day 249

This summer I'm going to Scotland. I arranged for a tour of John O'groats the very top of Scotland and there are puffins, seals and other wildlife I will see.

I'm very excited to see the cows - I just think they are sooo cute.

They also say you may see Sheep on the tour...Below is a photo from their web site. Now this would make me happy to see something like this on the tour but I can't imagine everyone would like to see this, not to mention how long it would take to get from point A to B.

My only other problem is clothes...Scotland will be high 60's to 70 degree's and it is there rainy month. Also I will be in the country part of the time.

My next stop will be Paris with temps in the low 70's and a very chic city. What does one pack for a trip like this??? Besides my rain jacket - better to be safe than sorry.

March 16, 2010

day 248

Ask me how Ana's class went last night? Oh I didn't make it there...I hit a pot hole on the way to class and got a flat tire.

I drove home last night and I'm dealing with it today in the day light.

March 15, 2010

day 247

Today would have been Joe's 44th birthday. Sunday the girls and I went to put flowers at his grave. The funny part about this is we always had a conversation about him bringing flowers to my grave and he for some reason never knew you were suppose to do that. So I had a little giggle when I brought them there.

We would have celebrated all weekend with a dinner on Saturday and I know with the nice weather on sunday he would have taken a long bike ride. I also watched the paris to nice bike race on tv and smiled when they were biking around Nice, that is the only trip he brought his bike on and went biking around the area just like they were doing.

My flowers to Joe - roses and some other yellow ones.

His card

Flowers from Foxy - you can't see the card but it says Happy Birthday Dad - Love Foxy

The girls waiting for me to come back to the car - Grandma I now have a towel down in the back seat

March 12, 2010

day 244

I'm going to start working on my taxes today. That means the girls are going to be perfect dogs :) and i will not be distracted by cleaning or anything else.

I can dream right?

I also went shopping with my friend Jenn yesterday and we hit the store russell+hazel for a store wide sale of 30% off. We got some good stuff too help us keep organized.

Monday is Joe's B-day He would have been 44. The positive side of this is for some reason he never liked to celebrate his birthday.

March 11, 2010

AHH France

This is France is anyone really surprised they are having affairs? isn't that what the French do?

Rumours that both French leader Nicolas Sarkozy and his singer wife Carla Bruni are having affairs have sparked a frenzy in the international media.

The presidential pair’s two-year-old marriage after a whirlwind romance had already triggered intense speculation on the microblogging site Twitter. Now the gossip is gaining ground.

It is claimed French singer Benjamin Biolay could be the new love of the former supermodel turned first lady of France.

As for Sarkozy himself, the story goes that he has sought solace in the arms of a karate champ who is also his junior minister for the environment.

But the president would never stray, his wife told British TV before the rumours surfaced, though she admitted not knowing whether their marriage would last.

Day 243

Last night I finally got my stereo hooked up!!!! A huge thank you to Ben. Now I can listen to my french cd's and get ready for my trip.

Also my acupuncture is going so good that now I don't need to go back for 3 weeks.

My blog entry yesterday about friends must be on a lot of peoples minds - there is also an article in the march issue of O magazine about dropping friends that are not good for you.

The weather here is just like Brussels weather...when can I have my LA weather back :)

March 10, 2010


I just want to thank everyone for all the support over the last several months. I do feel that good people come in your life for a reason however there are some that are just negative that drain you and are bad for you to be around. In struggling with this issue for years I just found this article from Gweneth Paltrow blog. Click Here for the link to the whole article.

Just to clarify this is not directed at anyone - I'm very thankful for all my new, old and old friends that I have found again. The friends I have been struggling with this issue I have no contact with anymore because they drain me of positivity.

“What do you do when you realize that although you may have years of history, and found real value in each other in times past, that you kind of don't like a friend anymore? That, after time spent with this person, you feel drained, empty, belittled or insulted. My father always used to tell me that, ‘you can't make new old friends.’ How do you distinguish if someone in your life makes you change for the better or if you are better off without them?”

We are all looking for well-being and happiness in life. So the purpose of friendship is to support and be supported in our search for well-being and happiness. Breaking unhealthy agreements challenges our tendency to withdraw into habitual ways of being that sabotage this intention. At the same time, breaking unhealthy agreements awakens our longing to grow and experience a sense of wonderment about ourselves and the world. There are many ways of being in relationship and this is an opportunity to learn something new.

Of course, there is always a chance our friend may not be interested in working on the relationship with you. That is their choice. But this doesn’t mean we can’t remain faithful to our friend; it doesn’t mean that we have to give up our care for them or our wish for their well-being. There is no need to abandon them. In fact, as citizens of the human race, isn’t it our responsibility to never abandon anyone?

If we live with clarity and integrity, how could it conflict with the well-being of others? Our relationship to others has everything to do with the relationship we have with ourselves, as well as the clarity of our vision. In a larger sense, cultivating love and care for all living beings is the only way to live with integrity and purpose.

Elizabeth Mattis-Namgyel is the author of the upcoming book, “The Power of an Open Question” (Shambhala Publications).

The more painful termination of friendships has to do with more complex psychological and emotional issues and are often fraught with anxiety and great distress. Friendships that last a lifetime are those in which the balance between give and take, honesty and support, and a genuine desire for our friend’s well-being are paramount. Unfortunately, as in all human relations, this balance can sometimes shift and no longer benefit one or the other in the relationship. For example, a friendship can go along smoothly until one half of the pair comes into some circumstance where social or financial status shifts. How two friends deal with the change of fortune for one or the other is a delicate mission. Here jealousy, envy and insecurities may arise creating tension where none existed before. As we go through life, we realize that some friends are always there when things go wrong for us but cannot stand it when our luck changes for the better. Likewise, some friendships cannot tolerate the loss of status, position or standing of the friend. Sadly, sometimes friendships are harmed when others in the friend’s life such as spouse, other friends etc., create tension. A more deeply held psychological construct is that of who we pick in the first place to be our friends. Until we become psychologically aware and more evolved, we may pick the wrong people to befriend as a way of working out unresolved interpersonal issues from our pasts. As we become more emotionally healthy, those friendships will no longer be tolerable. For example, when one has low self-esteem, they may pick critical friends as a way of reinforcing their negative self-view. However, if one grows more confident, this dynamic may no longer be acceptable.

In essence, our friends are the life-affirming fountain from which we drink. Good friends fill us up with warmth, honesty and a sense of well-being. If you feel drained, empty, belittled and insulted by a friend you should acknowledge that this is diminishing your life experience and not enhancing it. In this case, I would move away from this person, honor whatever good you did get from them in the past, and move toward those friends in life that only want to help light your way! Thank you.

Dr. Karen Binder-Brynes is a leading psychologist with a private practice in New York City for the past 15 years. See her website,, for more information.

March 9, 2010


Last night Ana and I went to her 3rd class. We practiced walking other peoples dogs, sound harmless right. Well for some reason the teacher thought she would pick up Ana then pass her to someone else.

It didn't go well...something happened I don't know what I just got to the other side of the room after the fact. Some how in passing her she was dropped or something and was so nervous that she peeed and pooed all over the lady that was holding her.

Why the teacher would think it would be a good idea to pick her up and pass her around is beyond me. She was just like a puddle taking her home so limp and scared.

March 8, 2010


This weekend I had a dream where I saw Joe kneeling down and had 3 dogs sitting around him. If my memory recalls right he had 2 dogs before Yenta. That made me smile.

The strange thing is that I didn't see a guinea pig with him. Technically we had spike together he wasn't only mine. :)

March 5, 2010

day 233

This is my new shirt! I thought it was fun. The last word snuggling at first I thought it said "smuggling" as in drugs over the border. Then I realized it was snuggling, but you have to admit it kind of looks like smuggling.

When to "my group" dinner last night and it is weird to be at a table of 10 people (1 guy) and all the women have on large watches (their husband's I wear Joe's sometimes) and are wearing either a gold band on there middle finger or thumb - or in my case around my neck. I guess I never thought I would never belong to a group like that.

March 4, 2010

Oh my

OK so I'm in one of those time where i have too much to do and not enough time to do it. That is why I didn't post yesterday I thought I would get some stuff done but I washed my floors cleaned a little.

I do need to a few things off my plate so I don't feel like I'm drowning. It is almost as bad as when Joe first died and I was swamped with stuff.

Seriously where does all this mail come from - I would like the postal service to go to 5 day and cut out Saturday maybe I could get caught up.

Also I got a heads up that Joe's parents will be at the cemetery on his birthday at night so I don't run in to them...well the place closes at sun down around 5:30 - 6:00 what is night???

Ana update she did good at class on monday night and is getting better everyday - even if she was chewing on my tax papers.

March 2, 2010

day 231

I didn't get to my taxes yesterday, spent all day going through my mail...I'm not sure what happened in February with me not getting to it, besides spending alot of time with the dogs. Between Foxy getting her teeth pulled and training Ana I don't know where the month went.

Going to the gym for the first time today, hopefully it all goes well. Then back to getting the taxes in orders.

I'm also trying to figure out how to take all the electrics on a trip this summer. I really need to hire a person to carry all my crap :) Or would anyone want to come with me and then help me carry everything :)

March 1, 2010


Can you believe that it is March already. Can you believe that I have also almost made it through a winter. I have had one for 3 years, and I really haven't missed them.

Today I'm working on getting my taxes in order...yuck. Hopefully it goes smoothly this year.